Now I know where i got my lameness from.
Its inherited.

Tonight, in the car.
Me: Are those Harleys?
Dad: Yup, only Harleys will make such room-room noises
Bro: That guy is too small for his Harley
Dad:Yea, he looks like a frog clinging on to the bike

A short while later,

Bro: Any superhero that drives a motorbike?
Me:Robin lo
Me:Oh, coz Batman spent all his money on his Batmobile and is too poor to get robbie a car
Dad:Yea, he cant afford the COE
Bro: and the ERP

My bro hasnt laughed like the way he did tonight.
Perhaps, hes getting back to normal

It is funny how the prospect of good food, good ambience and good company can cheer me up. And it helps that Giraffe has a bar too.

Pamper-Me Fridays are back.

I feel lonely.
to the extent that I want to be accompanied.
Rejections, I face.
I no longer have the courage to ask again.

Its okay.
I will get through this on my own.
Because I dont really have a choice

The day we tried to out-compete each other....

She: "You play the piano?"
He: "Sort of. But I gave up when I had to learn to draw the dou kay."
She:"Huh? you mean the muscial notes?"
She:"Well, I gave up piano-playing earlier than you. I could not coordinate my left and right hands"
He: "Umm, I din even reach the 2-hand playing part"
She:"Oh"

While on the train,

She: "You know, I used to get lost at cityhall because of the different platforms"
He: "I tell you a secret. I used to get lost too =)"
She: "I got out at cityhall before,crossed the platform and took back to where I started from"
He: "Heh, me too"
She:"So when did that happen?"
He: "=) JC"
She: "So I guess you don take the trains often, coz I did that in JC too"
He: "yup. secret between you and me okay"

"Help me out with my FYP? I can pay you"
"Well, you cant afford me'

There is a reason why I cant be bothered with FYP, even if it will supposedly pull your grades up to at least a 2nd class honours.

This came after someone said I am low maintenance.
"She just eats and sleeps the whole day away. How high maintenance can she get"

I wish you will know how different people get different treatments from me.

Have I ever mention how fascinated he is with my pencilcase?
Yesterday, he was rummaging through it again
Out comes my pencil
Out comes my plasters, and they start poking fun at how girls love to wear shoes that kill.

"My gf only wears birkies, very comfy"
"But I like close-toe shoes"
"Oh, I can lend you my army boots, filled with baby powder. No worries about the smell. =)"
"...."

Out comes my strawberry lipbalm next.
He took the cap off, mock-smear the balm on his lips and grinned at me
My heart started to ache

If he digged any deeper, he would have found the wrapper of the sweet he gave to me the first time we met.

As hard as I try to deny that Im blur, sometimes the things I do prove otherwise.
My mom tidied up my desk, so all my bottles of solution are placed together in a basket.
Contact-less, I just reached out for a random blue bottle of solution, mistaking it for the makeup remover.

I poured it out..
"smells funny"
I put it to my eye and lashes.
"shit, it stings"
=( its the nail polish remover.
And my first reaction is to check whether my lashes are still attached

Sometimes, I wonder when I do become a parent, will I accidentally kill my babies with my blurness.
I hope not.

I was on time today.
So on time was I that I had to wait for 3 guys.

At 11.05, the other 2 had arrived.
I told them "James will be late"
"okay, lets go to macs"
At 11.30,
I asked "I wonder how late James will be.."
He said " He din tell you?"
"No? He didnot even sms me"
"Huh? then how did you know that he is going to be late"
"Because it was 11.05, and he was not there? In fact you were late too"
"......"
"Shit. He called me at 11.05"
"oops"

So in the end, he ended up waiting for almost half hour, thinking that we were all late.

Hua Ping
"Cos you sit there and look pretty."
I say " No? coz im not pretty to begin with"
He said its a compliment.

I smiled inwardly

People ask me why Im home daily during my break.
"coz my bro is home"
Others don't understand.
But as long as I understand and my bro understands,
There is no need for others' understanding

Vanilla
Lyrics, Written, Sung by: Gackt Camui
(translated)

You're an honest moralist You trace me with your pretty finger
I'm a pure terrorist Your thoughts are rising like a revolution

A specialist bound by romance You used your long fingernails on me
An egoist who wants to confirm love I want to struggle on until I'm inside of you

You keep yourself at a distance
ah Before I lose myself

Is it okay to love, too? In the shaking night
It's good as it is More Deeper
As those almost maddening lips I've gotten used to melt together
I am...Your...Vanilla

One of my favourite songs, till I looked at the translation.
Seemingly innocent vanilla
Seemingly innocent mayo

I shall never look at the same things the same way again

Thanks for telling me in such a subtle way without breaking my heart.
But either way, my heart is already broken.

I do not know why I will automatically lean towards him when I sit next to him
Maybe the table is too small?
I do not know why he always leans towards me and whisper to me
I do not know why he is always playing with my bag, pencilcase and jacket
I do not know why he always give me the smile every few minutes

But I do know that whenever he does any of the above, my heart will beat faster than usual

Or maybe I am just imagining it all.

Perhaps I was wrong.
Avoidance is not the answer.
Maybe the more Im with him, the more I treat him as a buddy?
So am I supposed to spend more time with him to buddize our relationship?

I promised myself never to mention him ever again.
And if you are my friend, tease me no more.
mention him no more.
not even by the nickname I gave.
Please, if you are my friend,
help me get over this.

Going to school is a form of exercise or so I like to believe.
Like what Shiling said, after every 179 ride, we will be covered in sweat.
"Cold sweat"
That was what i was covered in when I tried to balance myself against the door when 179 went up and down hills, turned left and right sharply.
Yes, I was the last to get on. In fact, no one else could get on after me.

It does not help when No2 was next to me, stepping on my lil toe till my plaster dropped off.

It does not help that my slipper broke when I was on the bus.
Thank you, Shiling and friends, for stapling my slipper together.

And it certainly did not help when the first thought that came to my mind when my slipper broke, was that they kicked my slipper too hard.

I remember how clara would kick my slipper off my foot at every opportunity she gets in class.
I remember how I will frown n sulk as I have to retrieve my kicked slipper.

Today they did the same to me. I oiiii and sulked the same way I did to clara.
But deep down, I felt warm n fuzzy as I tried to do some hide-and-seek with their feet.
I know its wrong.
Well, its just some harmless flirting.
Right?

Vase. Thats my new nickname for the day.

Vase. Thats my new nickname for the day.

friend:Girls above 20 are no fun
friend:I prefer those that are 17-19
liu:I thought the younger the better?
friend:No. later i do something to them, will kena caned

So we are past the age when guys will want to do funny things to us?

liu: You have anything else after this?
projmate: Nope
projmate: You want to date me???
projmate: You don scare me. Im scared.

Some people just don't understand the meaning of small talk.

It is amazing how something can start from so trivial a question

Passerby: Qin wen, ni zhi dao you zheng ju zai na li ma?
Liu: Huh? you zheng ju? The nearest petrol station is over there?
Passerby: ???
Liu: umm, dui bu qi, bu zhi dao.


Later in class,

Liu: Is you zheng ju petrol station?
Groupmate 1: Huh? You have got to be kidding me
Liu: Its not petrol station?
Groupmate 1: you zheng ju means post office, you zhan means petrol station
Liu: Oh, but both have you in it?

*short bursts of laughter around the table*

Groupmate 1: Which secondary school were you from?
Your Chinese cannot make it
Liu: scgs.
Groupmate: oh, hot uniform!!
Groupmate 2: WA, sexy! Wear it to class!!


Guys’ fascination with the scgs pinafore has never cease to amaze me because that was what they talked about from the class all the way to the lab.

In the lab,

Groupmate 1: Sc uniform, very hot
Groupmate 2: sexy!!
Groupmate 1’s room-mate (sitting at the front): hot?scgs? Who?
Groupmate 1: Liu is from scgs
Room-mate turned and grimaced

Last week it was my so called race queen jacket that was the butt of their jokes; this week was … the uniform?

Maybe I should start charging entertainment fees.

You thought I was cute
I thought you were cool,
with the punching bag you had in your room and the bmw u drove
Had I not let the others hijack the first conversation we had


Perhaps I would be a step closer to what I want in life

If I had'nt been so shy then
If I did not pretend to not notice it
If I had let you take a picture of me,
when you had specially came back to school just for that
If I had looked for you a little earlier
If I had not hid my disappointment upon finding out you had already left the school the last time

Would we be into our 5th anniversary?

It has been so long since everything started.
JC seemed such a long time ago, and my uni years are coming to an end.
Seems like its just yesterday that i yearned to get out of hall 9.

Sometimes I wonder, if I get the chance to choose my path again, would I choose the same one? Did I even get to choose?

Did you?